~My weekend update~

So my weekend was really good. I got to spend more time with my daughter and it was wonderful, we had a great time together and I was invited to the surprise birthday party her friends threw for her on Saturday..It was really good for me to be there with her and share that moment.

Saturday we had twins born into our family. I am the great aunt. Ava and Emma

Both girls and mother is doing fine.

 

My visit with Brooke

So I got to see my daughter again Sunday. It was a really good visit, we hung out and had a great time. GOD is working on all that, and I am so Thankful for it.

She looked really good and seems to be doing a lot better, I pray he continues to restore and our relationship to the way it used to be but only better.

Im trusting him!

 

MY DAUGHTER BROOKE

HAS ALREADY BROKEN THINGS AGAIN BETWEEN US.

I CAN ONLY PRAY GOD DEALS WITH HER HEART AND SHE FIXES THINGS BEFORE TIME IS GONE AND IT CAN’T BE FIXED.

IM SO HURT!

 

Anatomy of Friendship

My mother used to ask me what is the most important part of the body. Through the years I would take a guess at what I thought was the correct answer. When I was younger, I thought sound was very important to us as humans, so I said, “My ears, Mommy.”

She said, “No. Many people are deaf. But you keep thinking about it and I will ask you again soon.”

Several years passed before she asked me again. Since making my first attempt, I had contemplated the correct answer. So this time I told her, “Mommy, sight is very important to everybody, so it must be our eyes.”

She looked at me and told me, “You are learning fast, but the answer is not correct because there are many people who are blind.”

Stumped again, I continued my quest for knowledge and over the years, Mother asked me a couple more times and always her answer was, “No. But you are getting smarter every year, my child.”

Then last year, my grandpa died. Everybody was hurt. Everybody was crying. Even my father cried. I remember that especially because it was only the second time I saw him cry. My Mom looked at me when it was our turn to say our final goodbye to Grandpa. She asked me, “Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?”

I was shocked when she asked me this now. I always thought this was a game between her and me. She saw the confusion on my face and told me, “This question is very important. It shows that you have really lived in our life. For every body part you gave me in the past, I have told you were wrong and I have given you an example why. But today is the day you need to learn this important lesson.”

She looked down at me as only a mother can. I saw her eyes well up with tears. She said, “My dear, the most important body part is your shoulder.”

I asked, “Is it because it holds up my head?”

She replied, “No, it is because it can hold the head of a friend or a loved one when they cry. Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear. I only hope that you have enough love and friends that you will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it.”

 

Praise Report

My daughter called last nite and wanted to see me and fix things and make it right with me and her again. I got to go to her place and get her phone number, we spent two hours together and it was wonderful. I know have tears of joy!

Thank you GOD for answering my prayers.

I prayer daily for that and not I am praying and thanking him for the work he has done.

There are no words to express my happiness at the very moment.

 

Purpose

This was my quote this morning.

GOD has a purpose for your life and no one else can take your place.

Hmm…. This is really hard for me to take in, cause I continue to keep going through the hardest time of my life and I don’t see the purpose in what I’m going through.  What is my purpose here on earth? I don’t know, at this point I don’t see one at all. The devil is attacking me from every angle and I am trying so hard to lean on GOD and stay positive and it’s so very hard. I am fighting it daily.

I dont understand why it keeps getting harder daily.

I miss my daughter so much, GOD still hasn’t brought her back into my life. She doesn’t see me or talk to me and that kills my heart.  I am still having health issues that I am fighting and boyfriend issues. I am over my limit and can’t take anymore.

I keep praying for GOD for help. I feel very unworthy for love and acceptance and forgiveness. I am very weak.

I dont know where I am going anymore.

 

Quote for Today

I never spoke with GOD

Nor visited in Heaven,

Yet certain am I of the spot

As if the chart were given.

By Emily Dickinson

 

My blog

I an not feeling like my blog is doing any good. I dont get a lot of readers. I am thinking about deleting it competely.

Let me know what you think.

 

Quote for Today

GOD IS DOWN IN FRONT. HE IS THE TOMORROWS.

IT IS TOMORROW THAT FILLS US WITH DREAD. GOD IS

THERE ALREADY. ALL THE TOMORROWS OF OUR LIFE

HAVE TO PASS THROUGH HIM BEFORE THEY CAN GET TO US!

F.B Meyer

 

Update

I had a big Biopsy performed yesterday for a couple of different test. They seems to be some issues with my Uterus now. Instead of getting into all of it I will just tell you that she tested me for Endometriosis.   I have to also go and have a sonogram done of the Uterus on the 12th of May then back to see the doctor and have more samples taken on the 22th of May and then on June 4th go have the biopsy done on my cervix.

My chances of a Hysterectomy have gone up after this. I also seem to have some kind of infection in my uterus. These are just a few of the things going on. Just wanted to give u a update.